Monologue -The daughter of Eve

 Monologue - The daughter of Eve

        by Sardar Khatoon.

Translated by Junaid Wahid Jokhio.

I was intimated to have come into being as a blessing, but why I am tackling all this.

I don't even know that why my soul feels restless.

I do not know why my soul roams around in deserts and uninhabited areas.

I don't even know why I have familiarity with cactuses instead of flowers.

I don't even know why there is chaos inside me.

I don't even know why I feel all alone even among a multitude of people.

I don't even know why I am looking for a leader in a homeland replete with tyrants.

I don't even know why I misfit in such a patriarchal society.

I don't even know why this world has been made an inferno for me.

I don't even know why I am being confined to forts.

I don't even know why I am being dispossessed of fresh air.

I don't even know why I am being ascribed to the scales of honour.

I don't even know why I am being murdered as a paramour/ in the name of honour- killing.

I don't even know why my guiltless ambitions are being silenced.

I don't even know what my actual home is. The place where I was born or the place where I am being chided over and over again after getting married.

I don't even know why my witness is considered half while I give birth to a full man.

I don't even know why a man born out of me becomes my murderer.

I don't even know why my life partner dislikes to accompany me.

I don't even know why I relinquish part of chattel/wealth of father allotted to me for brothers.

I don't even know why I am being betrayed/deceived.

I don't even know why men act like adoring me when they are not loyal to me in reality.

I don't even know why my point is always abortive and why I have to repeat it over and over again.

I don't know....

I don't even know....

The answer to my questions is rather obscure!

To cheat me is a reality of the society.

Yes! I do know that as a mother I have to burn myself like a lamp for each comfort/amenity of my baby.

Yes, I do know why all burden of sins of Adam has been added to the account of Eve while only Adam had tasted that "Forbidden Tree" in heaven!

Yes! I do know why I face all these negative behaviors in this patriarchal society only because I am the Eve's daughter!

A man is fearful of me and therefore, he has recorded all his sins in my account kept safe to himself on a sheet ever since the inception of this world.

Yes! I do know that I am only blamed as I am the daughter of Eve!

Yes! I do know that my sin lies in my being Eve's daughter.